It seems crazy that we will finally meet you. You are the girl of a million prayers; you are the girl who is firmly planted in our hearts though we've never held you in our arms, heard your giggle or watched you run. And we can't wait to do all of those things, Miss Emmy.
Often I picture you in China. It is difficult to imagine your daily life right now. I see you playing with the kids at the orphanage, talking to the nannies, taking a nap. I wonder if you look at the photo album we sent and try to picture us, too. How different our lives are right now. And soon, they will merge and I'm sure there will be sorrow and fear in that for you and I wish I could spare you from that. We won't smell right. We won't look right. We won't sound right. I'm afraid there will be moments that will seem scary. We will do our best to make them not as scary but everything will be new and new is sometimes a bit frightening. As your big brother Eli would say, it's a question of opportunity/cost. And he says that the long term joy of being a Pouliot outweighs the discomfort of becoming one. And I guess he's the only one that would know.
You have two great big brothers and one great big sister that are waiting for you. They've prayed for you every day for three years. They pray for you while you sleep. They pray for your safety. They pray for you to have fun. They can't wait to meet you. Grace spent hours organizing, cleaning and sorting toys until they were just right for giving to you. She will play with you for hours and dance with you and sing songs. And she loves you so much that she's willing to have us miss her 13th birthday to bring you home. Eli has been practicing pushing you in a stroller and teaching you all about the world. He plans to have you ready for Algebra by kindergarten and has been teaching himself phrases in Chinese to make it easier. And Noah is a great snuggler and he will carry you around (and maybe throw you up in the air!) and make you giggle because he is absolutely hilarious. You have just about the best big siblings in the world, I bet. I can't wait for you to meet them. You're going to love them and they already love you.
You also have the best daddy ever. He is funny and loving and strong and smart and just wonderful. He will tell you how smart you are and how beautiful you are. He will play "tea set" with you and teach you to ride a bike and dance with you in the kitchen. And you have wonderful grandparents, great grandparents, cousins, aunts and uncles. You even have a "twin cousin" who is exactly your age and is willing to share even her most prized possessions with you because you are special and so loved already. And you have so many friends. Too many to count. And they pray for you, too. And they already love you and can't wait to meet you. They've already had one kid shower for you and there is another one on Sunday. They will shower you with love your whole life. And you have me, too. And I love you so much, sweet girl.
See you very soon,
Mommy
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